QOTD: i fell for you painfully and hard, and i don't want to recover.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

why do humans have to feel so much.

from the eye.
to the heart.
what i see.
only hurts me.

i don't know how you can still smile with it all,
i still can't yet.

tiny and easy to let go off.
big on the burden of my heart.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

damn.....


when life brings you DOWN, dress UP!!!

Monday, March 15, 2010

disarranged

i am here.
here i am.
i belong on the dancefloor.
on the dancefloor is where i belong from now on.
the dancefloor won't trip me over like you did,
because this time
only i can trip myself over.

but i'm here now
engulfed in my papers, pens and notes

no.
this is not where i belong.
on the dancefloor is where i belong.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

backstreet's back, alright?

it's funny to say that i actually attended Backstreet Boys' (BSB) Australian world tour at Brisbane's Entertainment Center the other day, and the best part is that i actually enjoyed myself. half-way through the concert, a familiar feeling gushed throughout me. to have felt like how it was when i was primary schooler and was a die-hard-fan of boy bands like BSB, N'SYNC and 911, it really was nostalgic. what fun were the days when we were all naive, only having to worry about not overspending our lunch money and how we would wear our hair to school as we tugged uncomfortably on our prickly school uniforms. gone now are the day when we didn't have to worry about things like life accomplishments, money, the future and LOVE.

a friend was complaining to me today before lectures on how another friend of mine was obsessed with the hawt-bodied infamous multi-talented performer Rain. she was saying that my Rain-obsessed friend had to come out from her "bubble" and come back to reality of real life and that i shouldn't encourage her to stay in that bubble of hers.

but somehow i very much beg to differ and it's probably due to the position that i am in today, which makes me think so. i think that there's no wrong in actually having someone you can actually look up to, it keeps you busy and it fills up your spare time. sure the person is a famous artist and the chances of you actually meeting him/her is close to zero, but so what?! there really is no harm it in. and the fact that you readily know that you may never get to come into contact with them is a healthy one i guess. you wouldn't have to worry about your Superstar hurting
you and you wouldn't worry about them if their fame runs out.

so yea, escaping reality every now and again is what keeps us alive.
that's at least how i see it i guess, i don't really know.

so yea i'm searching for my very own Rain now,
i need this distraction very much.
*thinks to self*
Nick Carter seemed pretty hawt when he removed his shirt that night at the concert,
fyi i've always liked Nick or Bryan from BSB
*giggles*

Imagination disposes of everything; it creates beauty, justice, and happiness, which are everything in this world.

Monday, March 08, 2010

Saturday, March 06, 2010

find yourself - tydi

hey you, you messed up my dress
i need a new dress now
but it was interesting wasnt it?

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

i just...



guess i'd rather feel hurt than nothing at all

Monday, March 01, 2010

somehow.


it has broken me down to realize that my life has come to a stage where no matter how endlessly much i love you, it would still not be enough for you to have me back. i just can't seem to imagine my life starting without you and i don't know what to do anymore because all i think about is you and you alone. you pushed me on with your words of encouragement and now i don't know how to be without you. where do i go from here?
could you not have found a way to love me somehow?
could you not have given us another kick on the butt?

did i mean that little to you
because i just feel so broken now.

i am not afraid of being alone



i am just afraid of never being able to be with you again